Tuesday, December 29, 2009

我的心情

开学要到了
很快的,一年又过了
新年也要到了
不知道做什么,我很怕明年
我怕很多东西
我怕我应付不了所有东西
SPM是重要时期了
我不能再这样拖拖拉拉了
我的前途~我不能毁了自己
但是~我可以吗??
明年我也是要做工
本来想说要好好读书不做工
但是最后还是决定了做工
只因为为了补习费
明年开始我要补form 4和form 5的课
今年form 4的课追不上的有很多
我比任何人都迟了一段路
我要把所有的东西都追赶回来
但是,到现在我还没找到一间补习中心~!!!
我可以吗?我能成功吗?
做工了就很难把学业兼顾好
但是明年是我的重要时期~我不能再玩玩下
但是不做工,家里又有谁能帮我?
我只能靠自己
为什么我的生活比任何人都坎坷?
为什么我的生活比任何人都来得困难?
看见别人有爸爸,一个完整的家庭我真的很羡慕
我真的很妒忌
为什么我没有
有时候会问自己,是上天要磨炼我吗?考验我吗?
我可以选择不要吗?
但是我却没得选择
这就是我的命运
我并不埋怨
但是我撑得很辛苦,很累
真的很想痛哭
很想离开这里
没有人会知道我撑得有多辛苦
有时候再怎么开心也只是伪装
有时候真的对这个世界腻了
拜托你们就不要再逼我了~~!!!!
我真的会疯掉!!!
无论再怎么辛苦我也要撑下去
我要努力~我要坚强
jass你可以的!!!
加油!!!!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

卷了

今天
去电头发
本来想说要直的
但是却被发型师叫我电卷
说什么我适合电卷
而我
也傻傻的
电卷了
哈哈哈哈
坐在那里
我真的很大牌下的咯
两个发型师帮我吹头,电头,拉头
我就坐在那里看杂志
享受到~~
好像明星酱(想太多)
一面电我就一面问
会不会很卷的啊?会不会不适合我啊?
我怕电了很老哦什么的
总之我就很ngam chem啦
没有办法啦
谁叫我没电卷过
呵呵
之后那个男发型师帮我电头发的时候
叫我把左右两个手掌打开给他看
我还以为做么
就打开咯
他竟然问我是不是想很多东西,是不是烦很多东西
我当场就傻掉了
问他怎么看得懂却不肯告诉我
又叫我捉住右手拳头给他看
说我的真命天子没那么快出现
要再经历过三段感情感情才会遇到一个好的
什么???三段??!!!
拿我命吗???
呵呵
但是听下就好了
我没怎么信
过了三个小时过后
我的头发总算搞掂了
吹完我的头过后一看镜子————
我接受不到我自己啊
我看不惯
老到~~~~~
但是他们却一直说美,说适合我
但是我真的看不习惯叻
觉得好丑哦
反而觉得直头发的时候更好看



呵呵
三八照

Monday, November 9, 2009

回来啦

哇~原来我很久都没有更新我的部落了哦~
赫赫~没办法啦~最近有点懒和忙~所以就~~~
我有很多很多的东西都还没post在这里叻~最近都发生了很多事~
可是又不懂要怎么说起~
就skip掉一些好了~哈哈~
最近我都是在忙我的考试~快要傻掉了~
个星期那么多!!!晕~~
本来一开始是很努力的天天都吭书~(临时抱佛脚嘛)~><
但是,慢慢的,懒掉了~没有那个心读了~
因为我怎么读也不进脑~谁叫我一开学到现在的东西都不会~~!(没有补习的后果就是这样)
有没有什么好的补习老师可以介绍???
还要考到星期三啊~~真希望这天快点到~~~

Thursday, October 8, 2009

陈势安 天后


终于找到借口趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓 沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多
都会让人更惶恐
谁任由谁放纵 谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空 在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受
我嫉妒你的爱 气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众
我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错

推开苍白的手 推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我 心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠
我嫉妒你的爱 气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼才显得多么出众
我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错

如果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候 你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂 把你当作天后
不会再是我

还有我们

刚刚你突然告诉了我那件事~
我真的很惊讶~
那真得很突然~
对你来说一定很难接受和伤心吧?
要是任何一个人也很难接受的~
你要我别告诉别人~不想他们担心你~
好~我就不告诉他们~
但是你知道大家都是很关心你得吗?我们都不想你那样难过~
虽然那已经发生了~是不能改变的事实了~
我什么也帮不上忙~
只是当你需要聆听者的时候,我会出现~
听你诉苦~做你的听众~
希望你能尽快地把它淡忘~
我知道那是很难~可是我真的不想你难过~
希望你能好好的照顾自己~坚持下去~
你还有我们这班朋友 ~~~

funny mummy

today im still sicken~ wake up on 10.15am and go to bathed~ feel whole body also no energy~@.@
after bathing and eat my breakfast----rice == lol...
feel so faint~ finish eat just sleep again on 12.00pm until 3.30pm~ feel like a pig~~lol~~><>
suddenly~~!! i saw my mummy put the pomelo skin on her head~~~ it is so funny~~lol.. hahahaha...XD so old le still like a child...wakaka... yir~~~wearing the "lao hua" spectacle~~~~see my mummy so sweet with my bro's son ><haha...mummy shy shy....xD

after mummy play the pomelo skin, bro's son and my sis's childs also want to play too~~
== erm....they was so silly lo....@.@my bro's son~~~cute Jophy^^hahaha..what are they smiling???=Psis's son Brandon~~~uhmm...why my sis's daughter Naomi looks like so pity??? xD

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

hang out and sick

today lazy and didnt go to school~ wake up and just hang out with my fren~
my throat are so pain~ arhhhh~~~wanna die~ no mood to eating~
after prepare my things~ i take taxi to bank and bank in my cheque then go lrt station to titiwangsa station wait my fren~
finally my fren are reach and decide to 1u watch movie~
on the way going to 1u we are chatting so many things~ anythings also can chat~haha~like so 38 lo~XD
after reach 1u we go to buy the ticket first and "promenade" at there~XD
we are watching the SORORITY ROW
it is so scary and suprise~ actually~ i didnt watch finish the movie~ i just watch some part only~ because when the killed ppl part i no dare to see~hahaha~~~~im craven ~
after finish waching de movie we go to WONG KOK hv a lunch or also can say is dinner~lol~
the wesley are so bad~ he take my ugly pic when im eating the spagetti~ hng~haiz~ photographer sure be like tat~ like to take ppl de pic in anytime== although ppl was eating~
finally~ after eating wesley was fetch me back home~ cox i need to go my "kei gor" house gv baby present~ today is a nice day^^ cox i feel happy and freedom today~ no need to care many things and just hang out with my fren~
but the bad news is~~~~~~~~~ IM SICK ady~ it is so hardship~ my throat pain, flu, and my brain are so faint~ blur blur now and feel my body so hot~ gonna DIE
need to sleep now and hv a rest~~~~~~~~ I DUN WAN SICK

Friday, September 18, 2009

最近,总是在烦钱的事~
真的又要崩溃了~~~~我没用在自己身上,却还是不够用~~~
上个月做了rm800多~以为自己能存一些用,怎知还是不够~
按了rm500出来,交这个杂费,交那个杂费,又给妈妈~
都所剩无几了~~
现在又要不懂去哪里找钱来给学费rm90多~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
哇~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
我要傻了啦!!!!!真的很累了~总是烦钱钱钱钱~~~~~~~~~
为了钱真的快抓狂了啦~
压力又跑回来找我~真不知道几时会发神经~~~~~
我不想再好像之前那样,傻到自己也不懂自己要怎样~~~
我真的好想自己能relax一下~轻轻松松的过日子~
因为压力我已经疯掉了!!!

成绩

所有的考试试卷都派完了~
看到自己的成绩,煞那间很想哭~我从来都没考过那么烂的成绩~~~~
跌了~我的成绩都跌了~~~~
BM - 70
BI - 58
PA- 34
ECO - 24
PM- 26
SC - 35
MATH - 20
全部都好烂~!!!!
从没拿过这样的成绩的~尤其是数学,未曾试过不及格的~可是现在竟然拿20分!!!!!!
account也一次比一次差~~~~天啊~~~~我真的不想这样~~~考出这样的成绩我真的接受不来~~~
或许是因为没补习的关系吧~也或许是做工的关系~让自己分心了~~~~
可是就算现在开始努力也没用了~我已经什么都不会了~~~
看到自己的成绩这样,我的心真的好疼,什么mood都没有了~~~

Monday, September 14, 2009

sleepy

haiz...feel so sleepy now...
at ICT class now...
wat i wanna doing i also dunno...
feel wanna rest rest and rest....too tired ady this few days...
every day almost 2-3am only go to sleep, working also tired~~~
bad theng didnt come to school, just let me alone today..
sad~~~~~~
and today my account result will out..
i feel this subject must failed~~~haiz~~~this time my result are too bad...
failed so many subjuct already........
arhhhhh...... i wanna sleep, where have bed to let me sleep.......

Thursday, September 10, 2009

damn shit

change company start from 2mr ady..
damn fuck my this kunci company~and the fucker manager~
today when i go to bank check my salary~they just bank in RM806.90 for me only~but actually they have to paid me RM840 de~~~they less money~~~!!
is ok, fine~ i directly call to my leader and ask him to help me check for it~~he say the manager told the accountant if i one day didnt hit 1 sales, so i didnt hv rm60 per day salary~shit!!!!
he didnt told me before lo~jus say i every day aso got rm60 per day de~but now he say like tat~
damn fuck~ call him dun wan answer my call, din reply my msg aso...say will call back me also wont...
he be a manager, did he had a bit responsibility???!!!!
so fake~ always cheat ppl~ pc fair also cheat me and aiyee de salary~~~ wtf~~~
jus now 10.16pm only sms me say "sry about today unable pick up ur phone. i wasn't purposely not to pick up but my phone was out of battery. the salary for u was miscalcalute. the different of ur salary will pay u by cash" shit!! tat jus a excuses only lo~~~ i dun believe tat he say~~
so i jus asking him back "wat i wan to say also no use ady. my salary always change, accoutan they say is u say if i one day didnt hit 1 sales then no 60 per day. but did u told me b4? u didnt hv lo. pc fair u gv me and aiyee 60 per day i aso didnt say wat lo. but how come u can like tat. can u be a bit responsibility? before say if one day hit 3 sales then u add me 20 or else, but after ask u again u say u didnt say tat. u wan me how to trust u. like tat i better go another company work." so~~~ he didnt reply me anymore~~~
like tat aso gud~ i aso dun wan at he there working~ i gonna change another company~ that company gv me de offer better than this fucker company lo~~~
hmmm~~~start my new life again 2mr~~~new company~ new places and new environment~~

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

7/9 happy days

long time didnt go to shopping v my gals ady~ feel so happy~
cox every time i aso cant out v them because im hv working~but luckly~ i didnt working 2 day~
yeah~ we are planning to sing k at times square neway and go shopping~^^
but dunno why we all hv some problem... cant sing to the higher key~~~and our mood hv some strange~
mayb we all are so tired~lol~
but anyway~ we are so happy tat can hanging together, playing together and sing k together~
it is so fun~~~~~~
after sing k , we go to shopping awhile and go to eat dessert~ we have take so many pic... but the bad jen are took so many of our ugly pic....hehehe..bad gal.....~~~
when 7.30 pm like tat we are aso take lrt when back our home^^

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

roving

saturday working~ so so so so du lan my manager~little bit reponsibility also dun have~
aso dunno how he can be manager~ fucking him so~ he aso dunno to respect our gal~
always say tat ham sap things ~~!!!!! damn shit de
he know roving got so many boys only me a gal still wan me follow them~reli so hate~
roving so hot la~ like a sun burning on my head~~~~~~~
after next day, lucky tat i follow danny to tropicana work~
hehe~cox he is the gud guy and no need scare got ham ham sap sap de things will happen~
lol~~~~~~~~
so happy tat got sales and no need eat eggs~~~wakakaka~~~~~~
after finish work...me, ah heng, danny, ai yee and tat fucker manager go to momo yam cha~
we chatting and playing at there~
but no one person are like tat manager~ coz he very fuck~~~~~
yishhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but im take some pic at there...hahaha.....ah heng and danny...........
our roving car..........
so ugly oo........
at topicana toilet...wahaha..
hehe...celcom heng and danny.......
haha...at momo there playing de....

Monday, August 31, 2009

无聊开心的日子

这几天在kota damansara做工真的有够无聊的
没顾客就算了
还要三天都吃零
好闷好闷好闷
所以,大家过后就在那里玩来玩去
发起神经来
因为真的太无聊了!
哈哈。。。
无聊时间,就拍下照啦working place...see..no ppl come de...jamie...my colleague... nice pose...^^this is tat day de EO..haha...this pose like sumpah XD
wahhh......wat pose lai de??? so scaring de feel..
ah ha...this pose yeng la...lol....
jamie's cake~ it is so delicious.......
haha...see~ jamie is behind the p1 banner~ so silly yor..lolx
nice pose~~~~~wao.......looking at where~~~?
opppsss~~who r playing computer there???
haha~~my head so big~~~~but~ where my hands?????

Thursday, August 27, 2009

♥ 個 人 題
01 你叫什么 余淑慧
02你的綽號阿鱼,玉蜀黍
03你的血型不知道
04 你的星座巨蟹
05 你是男還是女
06 你幾歲16
07 你住哪裡kl . ampang
08 你現在的學校 smk pandan mewah
09 你有沒有手機 :
10 承上,那是多少什麽?

♥ 朋 友 題
11 你最要好的朋友(限1個): jen
12 你最討厭的人(限1個): 徐xx


♥ 情 題 -
21 你有沒有喜欢的人: 算有吧
24 到目前為止,你跟多少人告白過1
25 到目前為止,你被多少人告白過 不记得了
26 到目前為止,你交過多少個男/女朋友算3个吧
27 現在有另一半吗:
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你会怎样叫她别傻好了
29 你初恋情人突然跟你告白你会接受吗 : 不会
30 你为什么会喜欢你現在喜欢的人:
31 你和另一半牵手过吗:
32 你和另一半抱或亲过吗:
33 你跟异性牵手过吗:
34 是谁,你们什么关系男朋友
35 现在有人在追你吗


♥ 混 合 題
36 如果有天,好朋友离你而去,你会生气
38 如果有
天,好朋友背叛你,你会伤心
37 如果有天
,好朋友对你喜新厌旧,你会伤心
39 如果你很受不了你的父母,你会離家出走吗: 应该会
40 你上课認真吗还好
41 你功課好不好退步了
42 你开电脑都在干嘛 : facebook, blogging, friendster, msn, justxbao
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: 不清楚
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性: 不清楚


♥ 兇 手 題
45 传給你这份问卷的人是谁可荔,宝筠
46 这個人對你好不好还不错
47 這個人是你的誰小学朋友和中学朋友
48 你有喜欢过這個人吗没有(我不是同性恋的)
49 你们认识多久了5年和4年
50 這個人是怎样的人很好很可爱
51 这个人正/帥吗两个都很正
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过 我不玩同性恋
53 万一你喜欢這個人,你会怎么办没可能吧???


♥ 聯 想 題
56 說到正妹你会想到谁: 想不到
57 說到帥哥你会想到谁: rik
58 說到憨你会想到谁: gean
59 說到痴你会想到谁: crystal
60 說到暗恋你会想到谁: 没有
61 說到出去玩你会想到谁: 4姐妹
62 說到聪明鬼你会想到谁aiyee
63 說到傻子你会想到谁: 想不到
64 說到笑点低你会想到谁:想不到
65 說到愛笑你会想到谁: jen,aiyee, hauyi,amos,ah zhu


♥ 學 校 題
66 你的班导是谁 puan janah
67 你的座位是第几排第几个第二行的最后一个
68 你最喜欢的老師是谁: 忘记名字怎么写
70 你的英文好吗 还好
71 你的体育好吗 还好
72 你的数学好么: 退步了
73 你喜不喜欢你的校长超讨厌
74 你的学校好看吗: 外表罢了
75 你的班級是 4 varians
76 你的班級在几楼
1 楼

填后感: 还蛮无聊的哦

被我点到的人:
*jen *crystal *gean *kathy

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photo shooting

jus now had a fren ask me tat can be his model for his photography assignment anot...
when i heard it i was interested and would like to try, although i didnt try it b4
but, wanna go to bukit tinggi there to take the photo shooting
cox he say the places there are nice
1. there got the japanese village
2. and the colmar tropicale
he say the view and the feels are nice
bside tat, he also will bring his assistant too to makeup for me and let me wear the japanese shirt, etc... erm... little bit confuse, dunno how to write...
anyway..
jus go bukit tinggi there take photo tats all..
but scare my family wont let me go...
they sure will think tat is lying ppl...
haiz..how to comunicate to them...
hope can go..
if they dun let me go...
haha...
i mayb will go myself and didnt tell them...>.<

合照和大头贴










开心开心~~~~
年尾的时候在办多一次聚会
虽然人不多
至少大家都是抱着开心的心情回家^^